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*~ AiChA's Do[\/]e ~*nO mEsS oN mA $p@cE!! April 22 CLD A BUK A MERE BUK..ACTUALLY ELATE U !?a while aint it since i wrote of ma blog hea..we'll wid all da facebook,frndstr shit...nvm..i also got on track wid jes..hmm..JEWELS OF THE SUN...my word...did a mistake readin it b4 ma exams..finishd it today..n handed it ova..man o man...it is so damn BEAUTIFUL..SIMPLY SPARKLING WID PURE IMAGINATION.....TRULY IRISH..as much as iv claimed to h8 da irish trait...i understand it wznt but admiration....OH GOD...I WISH I WERE ;OST WIDIN DA MYTHS...AMONG IT ALL...JUST LOST!! LOST!!
find ma slf lyk Jude did...bloom out....JUST B ME...no expectations...no restrictions...flow wid ma world...n whirl wd it....dis buk hez....taught me soo much....tina says its corny...my word....yea if u luk it in dat perspective....but ders an organ caled blind eye..which u use merely to shut off da not-to-be-known stuff...n enjoy wts actually meant...i swear u can feel..da air..da surroundings..EVERYTHING...da way NORA ROBERTS descriptd Ireland..its my dream land now..aprt from ma belovd germany..i dunno y dat place....but dats anoda case...
DIS BUK has truly liftd me....taught me...y suffer urslf...ur created fer a purpose aint't?
n y do wt oders expect u to do.....u hv ur own aspirations to ..dont u?.....den y hide em!? o shit da world seems to b cmn on now..
gud grief...i feel wt jude can..in da buk...n wt words cn mean....da truth behind it all...man..chippi is ryt...shldnt hv got hold of dis buk now..M SOOO HAPPPY TODAY...I C Y I SHLD B.......WTS IN BEIN HAPPY...
but wteva near probability i had a wee chance of pikin dis buk....evn as itz near board tym....i thank da luck..lol da luck from da pot of gold under da rainbow...irish luck..lol....i guess dats wt da irish ppl of da battin tea brought al along......aite..gota get buzzin....ma worlds satisfied! March 19 Boards NEARING!!so wt>? its only a test of knowledge rite? nervous..scared? na fer wt!?..n today...OMG I HV TO GT A*''S..only today i reliz dat....shit...so much tension, wrk left to do....vry1's way ahead!? i hvnt done wid theory wt da hell !!wen'll i strt practice...n dee teacher...expecting ALOT....TOO MUCH MAN!!
gimme a break.....m doin wt i want to till where i can..m not realy in2 gettn all HIGH grades...n ma future plans r changin tooo.....n MA DEAREST CHIPPPIZ LEAVIN DIS YR......
hmm SO WT! February 23 I found a reson fer me..2 change u I usd to bMommy taught me dat der r few of da gud left And dat wen v stumble upon one We musn’t let dat go… So I stumbed ova a lot of everything A lot of gud-fer-nthn’s a whole lot of crapithings But lyf cnt go on widout sum gud So lord snt upon me a gud bunch Mong whom ,4 I choz, 3 I kept One- wz/is a blessin,im lvn da gud its brought me…but now smthns hppnd, incurred me,dis one sits silently no longr r nouns &verbs shard b/w us Two- da cauz v met in is a probability But im thankn lord evrydy 4 hv given me da slightest of chances…. Which led me to dis gud.. Really cloz r wee now..bcm a prt of ma soul…n a resun I go to skool Three- caught u alongside two…but observed u a lill 8r We share a common ground I knoe of which not.. But our respect is earned Four- u r da reason I write dis today..u’v proved ur integrity n’ gudness ova 1,2 &3.. U r more dan a common soul..an angel! I c u’v bcm my lyf..i don’t knoe whea 2 classify u… I don wanna lose u..coz ma mommy said so But v no more hv our hrts linkd..or so im thinking N’ stil I’m sire…I dont wanna let u go…ur far far too precious January 26 i NeEd A sToRy....Tell me a storie, my hrt is empty. Let da tears flow, my eyz r dry. 2 long hz discouragmnt bound me. Life my soul,let me fly Tell me a story, my hope hz diminishd. Tell me ov faith n’ love Remind me dat v r cr8’td 2 live on erth as in heaven above Tell me a stry,fill ma hrt wid compassion open my eyzi’ve bn blind. Remind me dat all men r brothers, Dat we all shld b lovin n’ kind First I was dying to finish high school and start college. And then I was dying to finish college and start working And then I was dying to marry and have children And then I was dying for my children to grow old enough for school so I could retrn to work And then i was dying to retire And now, I am dying ……and suddenly I realize I forgot to live. (4m a 4th course of chcken soup for the soul) January 19 IN-A-UNNIVERSE- I CREATED……somewhea I belong.!In dis small weein world …U must fentd to urslf….Tend to urrslf….& heed to ur slf There lives along da neighbour hood no one but urself…u can’t sing a chorus coz ur all by urself……You may go now….sail far from home.. Touch da land of anoda shore..it depends whea u go not!..evry pebble is urz…. U can run ova da meadows, ride all da horses… B safe 4m da shadows and burn dwn da houses U wontn be an outlaw, derz no cop to catch! So sing along the tune iz urz Ride along da nite is urz And bring alond..all da sky is urz! Derz nthn 2 admit, notn to fear Coz all ur life is just stuck to hea… January 11 wEn I feel lyk being lazieeeeeeee…
its hi-time in da morning da birds r up n’ r chirping da light of da stars had died da darkness I slept thru has passed warm n’ brite….yellow n’ orange had taken shrouded my dark lands’ it hz managd to beam in2 me 2 revert me & make me soft n’ comfie m layin in ma bed wondrn is I shld gt my feet cold gt out ov bed n let ma dreamz go. Da air is clean n the ambience serene Ma feelings more on da content side Though da rief within will not reside Im tossin n thinkini N’ thinking…n’ thinking.da time too has lapsed But my memory’s still runnin da marathon I feel lively, but dah aint anugh 2 lunge me outta ma cradle I’m happ, alil restless, strong and excited Dez feelings run thru my veins but despite it Nothn cn get me outta ma bed wen I feel lyk bein laaayyyyyyy zZzZzZiiieeeeeeeee!!!!!!! January 01 T.V.’S SHIT…N SO IS LIFESo simple it seems…dey shw t so easy.. Hv u cn doz episodes whea a prsn’s leavin a lovd one…der’s cryn, false hapinez & dn in da end da prsn doz smthn fer da deprtin prn n KHATAM KAHANi…dy mov on wid dyr lives wid only but A FOTO kept ..U WANNA KNW REALITY? A frnd leavin a frnd heaz hw it really iz..e.g. say ash & X Ash gts 2 knw x….likes x…x n’ ash bcm buds not vry cloz but still…buds at skool….from HI and BYE to respctin each oder to lukn upon 1 anoda..bond grws closer n dn trust begins…yrs passin but totally ignored(dats da big mistake ash makes) ash realizes x is wrth evrythn and so doz x( I guess) da bond tightens( srry im cmpletel ignorin a Y but…)n’ dy bcm vry cloz frnds welll its lyin in der hrts da importance of one anoda…but dats how it is….yes its hinted to one anoda more den a trillion times.. Times at its own pace n so is destiny..ash cares too much bot x now n entirely trusts her…(more den her own bst bud)) ash gts premonition…shes oblivious 2 bst bud(but again ders a stooped resun) ash places hrslf as x’s big sis, left/rite hand, as evythn.dis yr ash n’ x really REALLY knotted da bond (strngr den da triple bond presnt b/w da Ntrogen mol’s)dy hv fun, lauftr, share sorrw, dr to catch da oders back….smthn hppn in ash’s life wld b wid x..smthn in x’s lyf wld b wid ash. WHAM! N dn smtym dis yr (F) X SAYS COOLY9K IM SARCASTIC) DT NXT YR SHE’LL B IN AUS!!!! Hahahahaha No..NOJOKE( atleast im hopin) yep itz normal stuff afta dah ash weeps more den she did fer special one..shes shakin..shes ALONE( it hits her dis tym da rite tym dat she really is alone inside n outside0 ash’s mad at x coz ash thinks smthn in x’s lyf causd dis n’ ash is gonna sort it out but wait…WAAAAAAIIIT!...ash thnkn..dis is x’s decision ryt? She shld b supportn x den ryt? Not being mad at x…dis had to hppn one day ryt? Ash’s confused MAJOR!!shed always go 2 x fer such things but now x is…eik min ders special prsn…. Again HANG ON…dis S.P ist even hea(literally)n chances r dey’ll stay da miles aprt n end up lyk x n’ ash.as in wen ash gz to UNI.n y mess da sp’s lyf?..shes already previously fucked it up 2 sourly…n dy just made up but still a lot of unanswered doubts!! N ders’ Y As well but…..da y kwns bot x too( I guess) n prolly is goin thru da same as ewell…n’ ys y,x,n’ash R gud buds..close buds and say ash n y will b left by x but nxt yr ash n y will leave one anoda too….O SHIT who am I to go to knw? Dis ash who’d thought hrslf so strong is glass shattern weak.. K ENUGH wid da coffee drinkn n nose bleeds…. One thing pin it up…u R ALONE!! N b dat way…confide oon ur own..o damn I 4gt dis wz suppsd 2 b astory…k ya well it aint it just hw it really is Now things to do: Brk all strong bonds(not dat I think I hv ny left) so ur not hurt again (broke one major already) gt gud grades.move one wid lyf WAIT WAT DA FREAK A LEEKIN HELL!! HELLOOOOWWWWWWWWWW…KNOC KNOC!! Doz xy, etc n sp r UR LIFE DAMN U lunatic dipshit So lemme tell u x,y,sp,etc… U’v done and caused a lot in my life a tremendous lot….i can NOT explain..i’ll prolly hv to tlk to u bot it n do a lot of confessions but im mad now….n I wrote dis to let it out…God it helps.. I shld hv kot writin my journal! Its hrd bein alone..confesssion no.1 December 26 wn da nite is ovrcm u may riz 2 find da sunI raised da facts of eternity Brought in my dynasty Crept in ur brutality Wept wid sum sincerity
N once again I agreed to venture…
Battled da swaying pricky thorns Beseeched permission 4m da queen N set out in da land of despair To assist da abandoned soldiers
So I could pour in hope N surge deyr pitiless pain Ask fer da path dey won over And fer da pace left unconquered
To complete da fate I set upon Find da long lost one Cuddle ‘im in me arms N take ‘im to peace n rest.
Is it so bad to fall in devotion??? November 27 Wld u rather’d b blind or deaf? [ moi > deaf…wt u hear is worse den wt u c]Lord knws da wy she felz…evry dy in his nm she bgins…aicha
Hw exactly is it u feel wen sm1 u trust fer miles & eons…decides to take a left turn…oblivious of the impact in momentum it’ll cause….chosin deyr way to…sm place far from urs….evn if u wish to hlt ‘em from routin dat path….its hrt , soul n mind dat stops u…..coz fear grips u…wrnin wt u knw u’ll gt in return….
Sacrifice all ma tears in ma eyes…eek ma cats askin fer love… She holds a child to her hrt….makes it feel lyk its belssd 4m above…falls sleep underneath…..o sorry..AICHA AICHA ma ma ma…need sum1 to lean one…sm1 body mind n soul….to take her hand..2 take her wrld..shw her da tym of her life ……oooo…….mmm….Lord kwns da way she feels….evry day in His nm she begins to hv a shinnin hea ba ma side sacrifice all ma tears in ma eyees…aicha …aicha equote moi.. Aicha aicha smile fer me now….passin me by…all da tym….
O O sorry perfec song n prfct timing…yea so…dis prsn cld b u, me, ur bud, bro, NYBODY!!! So I aint wan ta b dah prs n at da moment I think i knw a few hew think im dah…but lemme clear tiz out I do hv resuns…y ur bn made teh think so lyk wise….i chose to keep em in…coz they make no sense wen turned out ontah yah….bu’ iv bn in ur place too remmbah…oh neh u don’’ht! Im not a BETRAYER……IM DA BETRAYED!
Howdy hooh!....imh dah blueh….fixh mah screwh
I dunnoh hewh dah reallh meah ish….hewh dah prsnh inh meah ish….itsh con-fushin ath thimes…n’h surpri-shin tooh…I meanh howh cnt’h I knw hewh I amh!?
DELA NADA SEL YE TODO YEL TODO SYACE NADA YE ESPIRACLES DE CONSEJOS MIRS MILE A PRAYEADA…
November 24 N’ LEAVE U BEHIND!??..hy all uni on lookers….did it occur to u….smthn crucial…playin da major prt of ur lyf….hlpn u sustain…..catchn ur evry fall……takin da same pains as u……blockin ur sorows….relievin da festrn thoughts……causin da most wantd funtimes………smtyms a painin da neck……are gonna b left BEHIND!!! Shit…..drat! Not only till our chem. sir blurted da open truth in our class….did it knock da breath outta me & got me to realize da fact laying hidden there all doz passin years at skool…dat…d…..a….t….. I WLD B SEP-RAT-ED 4M MA BUDS!!!!!!!! &%$&^@%#$%.........in a ,………well….sum tym….of say about..just…only….A FREAKIN YEAR OR SO!!! K m not emotionall…no im not……. OMG OMG OMG…….. I mean……..ya I knw sum day we all part………..but …….i mean…….i didn’t think…………DA DAY WAS SO FREAKIN THREATNING CLOSE!!! Ya its only till I pass ma A’ levels…..sum I will hv lost by then…but da time’s gonna go in a sec….wtchn da 3 monhs dat whizzed by as if ystrdy was day 1!!! N da nerd I got in me…..all dat…….dis sux man…… Dats it im shurrrupin….
Dis *%^&#&#%67 is bloddy crap shuckz…
Anoda drop of painstaking clot dats bn dropped in ma system…….left to deal wid….not dat im a rookie at it….nor am I an old hand……im just da balancing act b/w ‘em….brk down at tyms….n turn ma out slf to ma in slf ……im SO CAUGHT UP!!!! |
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